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I’m about to sound like a fucking hippy
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Don’t say I didn’t warn you.
So I forgot how much I actually like the world. Ah, don’t stop reading there. Keep going, it’s ok. I went for a walk tonight.
I’ve had a lot of stuff going on lately and today I was very stressed out. I have this Classical and Biblical Lit course I’m taking that is causing me a lot of un-needed stress. The professor doesn’t ever really lecture on the stuff he tests over, he just kind of rehashes the reading. Most people in that class have C’s or Lower. It really sucks. I really hate it.
So tonight, I was really antsy and fed up and needed to get out. So I went for a nice long walk and ended up down by the IMU on the riverside. There’s this spot down by the dock down there that I would sit at last year and look at the stars on. It was my spot. If I got pissed at my room mate or just needed to blow off steam, I’d go sit down there and do it. I really loved that little spot. I’ve only been down there a couple times this year. Anyway, I sat down there at a quarter after nine, just relaxed, stretched out, looked at the cloudy night sky, the river, everything around it, and thought a whole lot.
I think I’d make a good hermit. I decided this tonight. I’m not really sure why I’m here. I have no real clue what I want to do with my life. If I could just feel as free and comfortable as I did tonight though, I’d take that chance up in a minute.
I think all of us do this to some extent (I know I do all the time), when we forget to enjoy the moment and are constantly thinking 3 days ahead, a week ahead, a year ahead, etc. The moment is a nice thing. But it goes quickly, and you gotta enjoy it. Like that Beatles song said “You were always waiting for that moment to arrive”. You can’t look to far ahead and ignore the present.
I had a really wonderful night after all. And that’s all I gotta say now.